Just A Random Feeling

"Assuming feelings can be analogically explained, mine would be: 

first day at school

excited, happy, but feels scared of not knowing what will happen. will they likes you? will you get a friend for the lunch time? will you be accepted? 

midterms of school

in the comfort zone, have lots of friends, you love them, but feels scared of the drama. are they really likes you? are you really on the right path? what if they hates you but they are not telling? what if all these things are fake? what if it ends?

finalterm of school

it's coming to an end, that feelings of loving everything -including the things you hated the most at the first place-, that feelings of not letting go, but feels scared. are they really feels the same as you? what if the story is not the same as it is inside your head? what if they really want you to go? what if it's end someday-somehow-in the end of the day? what if...I'm the only person that hold on?

exactly my point. 

overthink

overscared

insecure

untrust

can someone please tell me

everything will be okay

everything is okay

more importantly, please tell me

you love me

for

my bad

my good

my absurdity

myself

and if there is something you hate

you hate that thing

but you don't hate myself

and if there is something you hate

you will tell me

you will not pretend

but you will try as hard as you can

to make me a better person

to turn the hate into love

more importantly

you will stick with me

and not just run away

leave me face this anxiety

by myself

I had enough

assuming feeling can be analogically explained, sadly it can't...

it just can't "

p.s I have a trust issue, please help!