Just A Random Feeling

"Assuming feelings can be analogically explained, mine would be: 

first day at school

excited, happy, but feels scared of not knowing what will happen. will they likes you? will you get a friend for the lunch time? will you be accepted? 

midterms of school

in the comfort zone, have lots of friends, you love them, but feels scared of the drama. are they really likes you? are you really on the right path? what if they hates you but they are not telling? what if all these things are fake? what if it ends?

finalterm of school

it's coming to an end, that feelings of loving everything -including the things you hated the most at the first place-, that feelings of not letting go, but feels scared. are they really feels the same as you? what if the story is not the same as it is inside your head? what if they really want you to go? what if it's end someday-somehow-in the end of the day? what if...I'm the only person that hold on?

exactly my point. 

overthink

overscared

insecure

untrust

can someone please tell me

everything will be okay

everything is okay

more importantly, please tell me

you love me

for

my bad

my good

my absurdity

myself

and if there is something you hate

you hate that thing

but you don't hate myself

and if there is something you hate

you will tell me

you will not pretend

but you will try as hard as you can

to make me a better person

to turn the hate into love

more importantly

you will stick with me

and not just run away

leave me face this anxiety

by myself

I had enough

assuming feeling can be analogically explained, sadly it can't...

it just can't "

p.s I have a trust issue, please help!

"It's the last time I want to tell you that I like you so much"

 I understand...

" sometimes something is better left unsaid "

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it's my birthday! 

it's been an amazing 6th of march ever...

surprise from mentasers

have a quality time with industrial engineer at campus

watch stand up comedy 3 with bestfriends

nonetheless, all the presents I gain!! yay!

well, when I have the mood to actually blabbering about all those event I might post it as well. 

but for now I think the outline is enough. lol.

"you'll never know how grateful I am to be surrounded with all of the people around me"

thank you, thank you like a million times...

meet them!

This is the team I belong at ALSA UNPAD debate competition...

 we seems nice...

proud of our forehead... 

exclusive...

and ready to fight...

the result? 

we didn't break...

what a paradox

it's okay, we'll fight again, right mates? 

bukan lagi anak basket kemaren sore :')

left to right: ludie, chita, me myself, zulfi

chita and me, her hair is longer now though :')

up left to down right: asih, devi, me myself, widia, shelly 

up left to down right: zulfi, tria, me myself, devi, shafira

" mereka bukan lagi anak basket kemaren sore.

bukan lagi temen main kemaren sore.

mereka, lebih dari itu "

lotso,

 xoxo

cutting my hair!

enggak se ekstreme itu juga sih...

HAI! jadi ceritanya liburan ini gue potong rambut \('o'\) (/'o')/

potong rambut selalu jadi dilema banget buat cewek. it's a BIG deal.

apalagi kalo punya rambut kayak gue :')

anyway, so I decided to cut my hair this February. karena udah nggak kerawat gitu ujungnya. padahal udah lumayan panjang..

enggak gampang juga sih buat gue mutusin mau potong apa enggak. masalahnya dari potong rambut itu:

1. your hair always looks GOOD just before you decided to cut it. dan ini kayak major problem banget! enggak tega kan jadinya :'(
2. bingung mau potong semana, ketika udah duduk di salon itu pasti ditanya kan mau potong segimana. I always said "potong yang rusaknya aja" dan gue lupa rambut gue itu udah rusak akut sampe ke atas. mau dibotakin aja apa ya? :(
3. salon itu suka mainin pikiran gitu. hairstylistnya udah bilang, "potong segini cukup?" dan gue pasti bilang "dikit lagi deh" dan menyesaaaaal. padahal yang awalnya udah bener -.-

the thing I hate the most about cutting my hair, is:

hasil aslinya baru akan keliatan setelah keramas. karena rambut cantik akibat blow nya udah ilang :')

dan gue pasti struggle banget buat nemuin cara buat bikin rambut gue keliatan gue banget. otherwise, 

this is the best look I'm gonna get...

but in the end, entah gue ikat, jepit, it turned out okay.

emang butuh berapa hari penyesuaian dengan gaya rambut baru sih, tapi it turned out okay kok

sama kayak hidup ya?  

di hidup, kadang kita harus "motong" keburukan-keburukan di diri kita

"motong" hal-hal yang bisa bikin kita buruk

kadang kita salah "motong", hal yang buruk kita biarin, yang baik malah kita potong

kadang kita "memotong" terlalu sedikit, kadang terlalu banyak

awalnya kita ngerasa aneh...

tapi setelah berapa lama, itu emang yang terbaik kok :)

nggak percaya?

bayangin aja orang yang nggak pernah motong rambut

bisa buat lompat tali ._. dor!

peace and love,

XOXO