there are lots and lots of story I wanna tell you. but umm...don't know where to start, don't know where to end.
let's start with the SAME DAILY ROUTINE I had. wake up, go to school, study, meeting, saman, go home, exhausted, doing A BUNCH of homework, sleep, then wake up again. It was like HEY! I NEED MORE THAN 24 HOURS PER DAY! it's all start with a SMALL steps that ends BIG. I'm in the school's intern students organization. pretty cool, huh? not at all. being in the organization is hard. it was like my body could explode at any time.
welcome to the stressful street, the street I've choose for my whole year. I wish everything's going as well as we expected..
being in the organization means that I don't have much time to hangout with my classmates, my soulmates, my friends even my family. I kinda miss the time I was a nerd, no activities, just an ordinary highschooler. I just want to PLAY and PLAY and PLAY more, do what I wanna do! do what I gotta do! no one can stop me except God and I. but now, everything have to be prepared. IT FEELS LIKE I'M GETTING 40 YEARS OLDER THAN MY REAL AGE!
my highschool friends said to me that they can accept my busy-ness. but they act like I was nothing for them. It makes no difference whether I am with them or not. It was like I had no place to cry on, I had nobody to rely on, I had no ears to been told.
hope I get used to this situation as fast as I could. hope everything gets better each day :')
Oh well, nobody said it's going to be easy, but I said it's going to be worth it...
